(Im)Perfect Lie

I think I know how it feels to be betrayed by friends. though it's a friend who is recently known. I did, to one of my colleague. I did tell lie to her. it was imperfect lie. I told something untrue and she constantly found out the truth in front of us. I felt ashamed, and even-though she didn't judge me that I lied, officially. but her eyes, changed at once. I didn't mean to lie, I automatically lied. that lie was not beneficial to me instead. I'm not into socialization. For me, socialization needs fake figure to get closer to each other, cause not all people can accept the real you are, I mean, no one. so that's what I did.I feel regret. Of course She'll keep my lies in her mind, cause this is not my first lie.