Feel So YOUNG by Homework

SUPER HOMEWORK CONFERENCE IS ON. ladies and gentlemen, keep in calm. we're facing crisis for sure and heroes are just that weak no one could help the human anymore instead themselves. the hope is Y.O.U. thanks. so, let's skip the speech and send everybody to hot growing-up process as hell.

Promise Set

I love my family deep inside my heart. yet I haven't done anything proud for my family. Till that day come, I can't look at my father's eyes cause I'll lock myself in the room and cry. My dad easily forgets things, and hardly hear something. but when he's talking about his children, He gives the best shot ! That's what I adore so much. We are getting older, time is ticking and taking the age. I'm stuck. I feel so down for I can't solve my sadness. I want to make my dad proud. I believe my dad will see that. this is my promise.

Give Me a Grip

These days have been amazingly beautiful days in my life. though I'm having my test but there's always someone who shows very supportive wish to me. thanks :)

I can do this. Ever since he asks if I have my dream place, clearly I ever dreamt Singapore. celarly, just wonder. and the more I notice that thing, the more I'm making my next plan come true. I'm planning to study and work abroad in Australia exactly in Melbourne after my four-year-college. I love english so much and I have this nerve to be more active in speaking writing and stuff so yahh, I'm doing it. tee hee....

BUT, the big rock is in front of me, the big rock is "empty pocket" -___________________-

this July I'll have my teaching schedule and I'm not gonna waste my time to only focus on getting money, but on experience and learning english as well. I definitely sure I'm not gonna spend my cash on useless stuff(except Ipod Touch) LOL. XDXDXD

I hope I can make it ! I'm gonna save my money for my next four years and, meeting people, be an active english speaker. guess 21 is not an old age to get late in reaching goals. that will be the time, the perfect time. :)

Ever since this plan is still on the air, I'm afraid to tell him. I don't want him to think I'm boasting or whatever. Wish me good luck and happiness ! :B :D :]

what should I do ?

finally, a couple days ago right I was having my mid test and I'm sorry blog, I didn't write to you at that time. quite busy on studying for test, I said I love him and he said he felt the same way, It made me super crazily happy !D:

LOL XDXDXD

today is Saturday so, yeah, I felt unnice maybe I'm so much in love with him. instead I'm not sure how he feels exactly I only can hope for the best and the best for both of us. he said he wanted to meet me a while on this Monday and My mind just asked "why?". blog, to tell you the very truth that, I'm not as confident as you'd think. if only I was this elegant slim beautiful confident girl, yes I would say yes to him. reality can't deal with what I hope. lol. maybe the other reason is, I still compare others with me. knowing a girl sitting on the spotlight is this kinda girl whom every guy wants to be with and surely she can carry herself and man can bring her in every place proudly. I want to make everyone proud of me. I'm on progress, so please give me more time to finish it up. what should I do? of course I can't simply tell him this thing. harrrr, I shouldn't say it. Idk his way of thinking. I'm afraid he might not get what I REALLY mean, CRACK ! :/ :# :F

Missing Piece

I'm not who I was yesterday.

It hurts badly

It's just been a couple of months since we began chatting and got to know each other well. Now I have to stop thinking of him, I don't want to make him feel bad cause of me. I have to stop this before I have this feeling get deeper and deeper. It'll hurt I know, CLEARLY he's gonna leave, and I have to prepare, I have to start to let go now. I wanna know what he feels, hope he feels alright,hope he doesn't care of me. he'll always be there and I'll always be here. see, blog?

I deactivated our communication tool. I target myself it should work ! through this way, we'll have our own clear way. if now, we don't. i feel so blur. sometimes I think whether I did is right or wrong, I keep going on it hoping everything's gonna be alright. I am a mess. nobody likes me, I hope. better like this, always think myself unwanted and work hard. thanks my friend. thank you. I can guarantee your feeling will change once you see me, cause you're not this type of man who likes this type of girl, just know it. you will love this someone who is beautiful, perfect feminine elegant woman that you can bring in every place with pride. which is not me, or yet. so, I know I'm pessimistic girl, I'm just not with you, won't be.

see me clearly here, honestly tell me what you see from your deepest heart. i wanna know what you feel. i'm this sad when I keep thinking that I'm nothing to you.

Please (╥﹏╥)

Please don't do demo to this world, though I know it's too late to say that. you all should think back of how we all get united. remember the time when you can't do nothing without others? remember when you don't know how to solve things and they come to you? THAT'S LIFE. now, don't you think that you can do anything and that's what you're going to do now. we still have generations. the government might be deceitful, bad, unfair, but SHOULD YOU BE ONE OF THEM NOW? let's go back all to God. God knows every pain you feel, in every second in every breath you take. May the world end this war, may this world be the safest place for all people that live instead of heaven for the dead.