let's over it. it's enough mar. you'll fall down more painfully. this friend won't be there, where you want this friend to be. trust me, yourself. simply stare at yourself in the mirror, get back yourself to you. this friend is fake, this friend you made with your imagination doesn't exist at all in your reality. the first thing you have to do is WAKE UP.
I'll stop it. I can do it. yes of course I can do it.